I suppose I could wendge about the meaninglessness of study or the fact that i'm studying too hard, but i fear that most of you are already sick of this speech. So instead, i will attempt to say something that is possibly more interesting.

I suppose one of my greatest love's is movies. That is why, when Rosa insisted that i watch a "hong kong movie" i didn't resist too much. I was a bit worried because i wasn't sure that i would understand enough of what was happening for me to enjoy it. There is the whole language barrier, which is supposed to be eased by subtitles. Then there is the problem with reading the subtitles fast enough to keep up with the images. if you can manage to do that, then your doing very well. I held my breath and watched the first one. It was Twins Effect. This one didn't have english subtitles so Rosa translated it for me when i didn't understand. (which was all the time, pretty much). It was really wonderful though...i found a style for romance that i hadn't known. (this film as not a romance, btw...it was more of an action) The reason that the romance got me, was there was no big kiss scene at the end. I somewhat brushed it off until i watched another and another and yet another movie. No matter what the genre, romance, action, sci-fi, ect. the "big kiss" at the end is missing. I don't think i fully realized that this could be done effectively. As in, leave out the sexual physical contact and still leave the audience feeling statisfied leaving the relationship where it is. I really like it. It has given me new material to work with!

So there is my astonishing revelation for the day. Hope you enjoy.

I suppose I could wendge about the meaninglessness of study or the fact that i'm studying too hard, but i fear that most of you are already sick of this speach. So instead, i will attempt to say something that is possibly more interesting.

I suppose one of my greatest love's is movies. That is why, when Rosa insisted that i watch a "hong kong movie" i didn't resist too much. I was a bit worried because i wasn't sure that i would understand enough of what was happening for me to enjoy it. There is the whole language barrier, which is supposed to be eased by subtitles, then there is the problem with reading the subtitles fast enough to keep up with the images. if you can manage to do that, then your doing very well. I held my breath and watched the first one. It was Twins Effect. This one didn't have english subtitles so Rosa translated it for me when i didn't understand. (which was all the time, pretty much). It was really wonderful though...i found a style for romance that i hadn't known. (this film as not a romance, btw...it was more of an action movie) The reason that the romance got me, was there was no big kiss scene at the end. I somewhat brushed it off until i watched another and another and yet another movie. No matter what the genre, romance, action, sci-fi, ect. the "big kiss" at the end is missing. I don't think i fully realized that this could be done effectively. As in, leave out the sexual physical contact and still be able to have a story that was pleasing at the end. I really like it. It has given me new material to work with!

So there is my astonishing revelation for the day. Hope you enjoy.

As you can see, i have made a few changes to the blog. I hope this will make it both more interesting for you and more helpful for me. (interesting for you because you can now interact, and more helpful for me because i can know who actually looks at this thing)

Well...i hope to have some profound message to deliver soon...as it is, i'm just struggling to keep my head above assignments. Therefore, no further words will i impart today.

Normally, i won't put two posts up a day, but as i was surfing the net i came across this quote:

"It is easier to serve God without a vision, easier to work for God without a call, because then you are not bothered by what God requires; common sense is your guide, veneered over with Christian sentiment... But if once you receive a commission from Jesus Christ, the memory of what God wants will always come like a goad; you will no longer be able to work for Him on the common-sense basis. " -Oswald Chambers-

It struck me, hard. So i had to put it up here. In case anyone was wondering how i came across it, (don't worry, i know you weren't really wondering) i was looking for christian movie studios. This is part of a mission statement of one of the studio producers. I couldn't help but admire it. Anyway...hope you all find it has profound as i did.

I have spent an entire day locked in my room, coming out for the occational toilet use and food. (Although not in the same go) The reason for this blandness? Study. Can you believe this is the first week of school, yet i have locked myself up to study like it was the last week of semester? This isn't right, i know! ...

However, having spent the day studying, shouldn't i now be more prepared for the class? the short answer is no. What i have been studying is a book by Helen Garner called The First Stone. It detailed a real life incident where a headmaster of a University was charged with sexual harrassment. The book took up the claim that everyone has sexually harrassed someone at some point in time, whether knowing or unknowing. It then called on females, specifically, to take responsiblities for thier actions. So what does all this have to do with my studying? well...i read the book and began the process of preparing a tutorial presentation. The question was "In The First Stone, was "truth" and fiction blurred. The problem is, i can't find the "real" event! Everyone seems to know it happened yet no one knows any more than the book details! this is just crazy!

Where has this left me? Wondering why the tutorial question didn't deal with sexual harrassment instead of "truth" and fiction. I have all of two paragraphs of a 35 minute presentation ready. What else is there to do? Speak to the lecturer? Search the library? Abandon the internet as useless? I think my solution for the moment will be leaving it alone rather than trying to figure out the next step. :P

Today i'm inspired to write about answers....answers to prayer, i think.

Life, for me, is so strange. I tell God, (listen to me 'tell God'! as if i could ever be so presuming!) Anyway...i say to God, "God, today i would like to meet so-and-so." and next thing i know, i'm meeting so-and-so. "Wow!" i say to myself, "God is really listening to me!" The next day i say, "God, i want to speak with so-and-so"...and i don't. We pass in the hall, i smile and nothing happens. I don't know. Why does that happen?

One minute i get what i want the next i get nothing. Is that fair? Shouldn't it be all or nothing? Maybe my requests are answered on the basis of my relationship with God?

I don't have all the answers, but i think i have come up with something. God does not answer me in accordance to my will, but His. If it fits into His plan, and I happen to ask it, then it works out. If i ask outside of the plan, there is no give. He isn't going to give me something that will hurt me more than help me. He is watching out for my best interest. When i think about it like that, i'm suddenly flooded by a sense of peace. If God is working this out in his plan, then i don't have to be or do anything. (i guess i do need to continue to be me and put myself out there, but i don't have to change who i am or go off the wall to impress someone)

Well, there is my thought for the day. As usual, if i have caught you in the middle of a yawn, i'm sorry. I'm just figuring out what everyone else already has....

I have just finished reading C.S. Lewis's book 'Til We Have Faces' again. I was stuck by a line that goes something like "How can we meet them (the gods) face to face until we have faces?". The idea behind the line is that we can not say anything to God before we have discovered what we really want to say. The core matter, if you will. Now there is some obvious theological arguments against this, but i was impressed beyond this. What is it that i really, really have to say? what is my life really getting at? Is it possibly that my life, up to this point, has been mere drival about nothing? Yes. I suppose i am Orual. I am Ungit. (if you haven't read the book, read it!) But the point goes further than this. What happens now? Orual doesn't stay Orual. and Ungit doesn't stay Ungit. Is it possible that i too, can change from ugliness into beauty? I suppose most would argue yes, i can. But it is not a matter of mere desire or unconsious thought. There is a consiousness that must accompany the change. There is a willingness, but above all, a mercy.

I like the part in the book were Orual has already brought her complaint to the gods, she has been answered, and they now are going to bring thier complain against her to thier courts. She asks her old teacher, "Will i get justice?" he replies "NO!" "Are they unjust then, father?" she asks. "Of course, daughter! what would become of us if they were?" I like that. Where would i be if God was always just and never merciful? What would even be the point in living a day more if mercy was not part of his judgement?

I suppose this rambling has caught you yawning. It is alright. I am exploring the issues others before me have already comes to grips with. I will leave you now, with no last parting words or phrases.

Today is a new day...a new chance to start. So today is the day, i attempt to become a simi regular blogger. Please don't hold your breath and get too excited about this...there is no guarantee that this new found enthusiasm will hold, or that my spelling skills will improve. However, today is a new day, a chance to start fresh, a chance to redeam myself as a blogger....