why now?

I don't deny that God plays a bigger part in my life than i like to acknowledge. I somehow like believing that all my big feats are done out of my own power. The truth is much more somber. The truth is that i've done nothing but whine about how hard the journey is. I'm happy enough to take the credit when it comes to it, even though i've done nothing but drag my feet the whole journey!

How did i manage to get to this spot in my life? Simply by God's grace. How will i move forward....probably kicking and screaming.